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Written on: Friday, September 21, 2012 Time: 8:56 AM
I felt sad for myself last night...
It hurts but I want thank you this much...
Yes I am dumb I got difficulty understanding certain things...
All the Nasty comment that is said to me I accept it and I do felt hurt deep below but all I want is a change in me...
I'm really trying hard since my primary school life till now...
I've changed as the years past could say.
There is still room for improvement right now.
I said only you could understand me, is really what you understand me and tell me...
I may not be good at showing the appreciation from me to you right now. But I sincerely do appreciate you some one who I never regretted meeting you.
Just felt like giving you a hug at the point of time... My appreciation to you and calm you down with disappoint I gave you.
Don't cry for me... I felt hurt too...
Thank You ♥
P.s.: Yes you shouldn't Be the one tell me but me Telling you.
Irritating?
Written on: Tuesday, September 18, 2012 Time: 10:22 PM
When I'm just being myself. :)
Do you now see when you are tired how do you speak to me even I am as your friend?
Is not because I'm not changing... It just comes naturally.
If you only really understands how I felt...
Reduce from what we were before...
Written on: Sunday, September 16, 2012 Time: 11:54 AM
If you're reading this I'll be glade.
Now we are friends, the happy moments we had together are hard to forget.
You say I'm not the one you are looking for, but as time comes yes? That you have to see for your own.
I had this picture in my wallet and the back of my cards too because you're special and gave me the courage to push myself as a better person. I do miss you still and even if times flies I'll miss you still. Will we be together in future let nature takes it course, but I do have confident you won't see me the way how I am last time again.
Yes it takes time to heal.
But all gifts and photos were never threw away, except the toys...
They may mean nothing right now to you... But I all means something to me.
You always say "Huh. I give the some thing that are not useful."
I tell you no uh they mean something to me uh.
I really means some thing to me right now.
I listen to the music box you gave me. The tune inside was "Itsy Bitsy Spider".
In this tune, you told me the story of no matter how hard is it to archive your goal, you never stop doing it till you get there if you fall again and again.
Now, it all means so clear to me... I kept lose you again and again.
This time round I should go the other way. Even thought it's late now...
I may not have good words coming out from my mouth but I show how I loved you. That time round yes I didn't did my part. I fucked up...
Now you had your hands off me already. Yes you are no one to help me, but you're once someone I helped you too even though its a minor part which you think I had did. Yes you did helped me a lot... but you do not have to say you're nobody to me to help me... I see something in you that why I kept clenching on to you... But this time round I only could help my own...
When you left me, I thought to myself... where can I find someone like you with this specialty that's in you? I felt alone and miserable...
Even when I went to Universal Studio Singapore yesterday, I am alone... I felt extremely lost and down...
It's not I do not have friends, is just I don't have people to talk my feelings out with other than you. It may sound lame and nonsense and the world is like only you are the one I have to talk with left... But is what I share with you about most I could say...
So right now what I have now I clean up myself.
Lets start a new and we'll see again. :) Just remember this:
I would want to be the one to hold your hand and guide you and not others holding on to your hand and guide you.
I love you.
What is my definition of love?
Written on: Sunday, August 26, 2012 Time: 9:47 AM
Love isn't what you could give at times. Love is a connection that couldn't be described. Even one is rich one is poor, one is smart one is under smart. It shows that the person has your heart regardless the hard moments.
-Jun Kai-
The confusion, the hurt, the disappointment.
Written on: Saturday, August 25, 2012 Time: 1:38 PM
As things has been said and clear, I felt satisfy now.
But What I know that want you to love again is hard again.
You said nothing has been hide from me.
What happen to the 28weeks of happy moment with him?
Yes you say you got nothing to hide from me. But what you did. Explains in his blog. You know I've been through with you so many things... I tell you the purpose of life what you should what you shouldn't.
I just felt hurt right now. The way you act in front of me. The way you measure things. The way you could make such quick decisions where you don't think deep enough.
And now I get so disappointed with the both of you.
First you as a friend of mine I always trust you won't do anything more than that. When you 2 play I didn't say anything when you should know I do not like. Yes I am in position to say you right now. But what is this? I treat you my friend and this is what you could even do this behind me and somehow I know right I front of me.
Then you as someone you are attached to. I said so many time and mentions there must be a barrier... when every time I tell you or kept mentioning, you just ignore me... then end up things like this happens. Is not totally you fault.
But both. Why you as a friend and the one I love don't have that barrier as well? Is not I talk nasty but where is the dignity and discipline? Have not your parents or any drama you watch taught you?
I won't want to pull any one in this issue but just take it as an example. Right now in this position are you to like Jake and Christina status? How would you feel when you watch them. It applies to how I feel now.
You know even if I kept quiet that don't mean you could climb over the head of mine.
I'm really being to kind to the society already. What I did to deserve this torture?
She has something special in her.
Written on: Tuesday, August 21, 2012 Time: 12:05 AM
Today we came across the same place where we exchanged our number.
We sat down and have a little talk about us. what changed us
She's my sweet heart.
Written on: Thursday, July 14, 2011 Time: 1:19 AM
Today I blog someone how much I love her.
Ever since when we started to be together on the 20th December 2010.
I ever remember I told her to be my girlfriend. And she rejected me once. Then I asked her again because I knew something isn't right in her heart.
When she agreed on me, I promised her to give the best for her. But fail for today and some of the day.
When ever she had tears rolling down her cheeks, one thing I had in mind what did I promised her? Why is this happening?
It just feel so bad. Or even worse than bad in describe. What is the problem that happen was, it's me. I'm the one with the stuck up attitude.
What's wrong...
Sometimes it's so bad, leaving is just the only solution I or she could think of.
But then most of the time she got blower away she just said it.
After that she gave me chances and chances again. I'm not happy because she gave me lots of chances. But because she held on to me because she loved me, she believes me, she misses me.
I just feel kinda useless being a boyfriend like that. She's giving me chances but I still blew her up like that. Is damn a shame.
I love you my girlfriend. Thank you for all the forgiveness. But sorry for all the hurt that I put on you.
Where reflections were been discovered and resolved when we quarrel.
She's my strong girlfriend. Her name is Yi Jie. <3
I Love you silly. I know you hate me. Just hate me, it is better and easier hating me than love me.
Written on: Friday, September 21, 2012 Time: 8:56 AM
I felt sad for myself last night...
It hurts but I want thank you this much...
Yes I am dumb I got difficulty understanding certain things...
All the Nasty comment that is said to me I accept it and I do felt hurt deep below but all I want is a change in me...
I'm really trying hard since my primary school life till now...
I've changed as the years past could say.
There is still room for improvement right now.
I said only you could understand me, is really what you understand me and tell me...
I may not be good at showing the appreciation from me to you right now. But I sincerely do appreciate you some one who I never regretted meeting you.
Just felt like giving you a hug at the point of time... My appreciation to you and calm you down with disappoint I gave you.
Don't cry for me... I felt hurt too...
Thank You ♥
P.s.: Yes you shouldn't Be the one tell me but me Telling you.
Irritating?
Written on: Tuesday, September 18, 2012 Time: 10:22 PM
When I'm just being myself. :)
Do you now see when you are tired how do you speak to me even I am as your friend?
Is not because I'm not changing... It just comes naturally.
If you only really understands how I felt...
Reduce from what we were before...
Written on: Sunday, September 16, 2012 Time: 11:54 AM
If you're reading this I'll be glade.
Now we are friends, the happy moments we had together are hard to forget.
You say I'm not the one you are looking for, but as time comes yes? That you have to see for your own.
I had this picture in my wallet and the back of my cards too because you're special and gave me the courage to push myself as a better person. I do miss you still and even if times flies I'll miss you still. Will we be together in future let nature takes it course, but I do have confident you won't see me the way how I am last time again.
Yes it takes time to heal.
But all gifts and photos were never threw away, except the toys...
They may mean nothing right now to you... But I all means something to me.
You always say "Huh. I give the some thing that are not useful."
I tell you no uh they mean something to me uh.
I really means some thing to me right now.
I listen to the music box you gave me. The tune inside was "Itsy Bitsy Spider".
In this tune, you told me the story of no matter how hard is it to archive your goal, you never stop doing it till you get there if you fall again and again.
Now, it all means so clear to me... I kept lose you again and again.
This time round I should go the other way. Even thought it's late now...
I may not have good words coming out from my mouth but I show how I loved you. That time round yes I didn't did my part. I fucked up...
Now you had your hands off me already. Yes you are no one to help me, but you're once someone I helped you too even though its a minor part which you think I had did. Yes you did helped me a lot... but you do not have to say you're nobody to me to help me... I see something in you that why I kept clenching on to you... But this time round I only could help my own...
When you left me, I thought to myself... where can I find someone like you with this specialty that's in you? I felt alone and miserable...
Even when I went to Universal Studio Singapore yesterday, I am alone... I felt extremely lost and down...
It's not I do not have friends, is just I don't have people to talk my feelings out with other than you. It may sound lame and nonsense and the world is like only you are the one I have to talk with left... But is what I share with you about most I could say...
So right now what I have now I clean up myself.
Lets start a new and we'll see again. :) Just remember this:
I would want to be the one to hold your hand and guide you and not others holding on to your hand and guide you.
I love you.
What is my definition of love?
Written on: Sunday, August 26, 2012 Time: 9:47 AM
Love isn't what you could give at times. Love is a connection that couldn't be described. Even one is rich one is poor, one is smart one is under smart. It shows that the person has your heart regardless the hard moments.
-Jun Kai-
The confusion, the hurt, the disappointment.
Written on: Saturday, August 25, 2012 Time: 1:38 PM
As things has been said and clear, I felt satisfy now.
But What I know that want you to love again is hard again.
You said nothing has been hide from me.
What happen to the 28weeks of happy moment with him?
Yes you say you got nothing to hide from me. But what you did. Explains in his blog. You know I've been through with you so many things... I tell you the purpose of life what you should what you shouldn't.
I just felt hurt right now. The way you act in front of me. The way you measure things. The way you could make such quick decisions where you don't think deep enough.
And now I get so disappointed with the both of you.
First you as a friend of mine I always trust you won't do anything more than that. When you 2 play I didn't say anything when you should know I do not like. Yes I am in position to say you right now. But what is this? I treat you my friend and this is what you could even do this behind me and somehow I know right I front of me.
Then you as someone you are attached to. I said so many time and mentions there must be a barrier... when every time I tell you or kept mentioning, you just ignore me... then end up things like this happens. Is not totally you fault.
But both. Why you as a friend and the one I love don't have that barrier as well? Is not I talk nasty but where is the dignity and discipline? Have not your parents or any drama you watch taught you?
I won't want to pull any one in this issue but just take it as an example. Right now in this position are you to like Jake and Christina status? How would you feel when you watch them. It applies to how I feel now.
You know even if I kept quiet that don't mean you could climb over the head of mine.
I'm really being to kind to the society already. What I did to deserve this torture?
She has something special in her.
Written on: Tuesday, August 21, 2012 Time: 12:05 AM
Today we came across the same place where we exchanged our number.
We sat down and have a little talk about us. what changed us
She's my sweet heart.
Written on: Thursday, July 14, 2011 Time: 1:19 AM
Today I blog someone how much I love her.
Ever since when we started to be together on the 20th December 2010.
I ever remember I told her to be my girlfriend. And she rejected me once. Then I asked her again because I knew something isn't right in her heart.
When she agreed on me, I promised her to give the best for her. But fail for today and some of the day.
When ever she had tears rolling down her cheeks, one thing I had in mind what did I promised her? Why is this happening?
It just feel so bad. Or even worse than bad in describe. What is the problem that happen was, it's me. I'm the one with the stuck up attitude.
What's wrong...
Sometimes it's so bad, leaving is just the only solution I or she could think of.
But then most of the time she got blower away she just said it.
After that she gave me chances and chances again. I'm not happy because she gave me lots of chances. But because she held on to me because she loved me, she believes me, she misses me.
I just feel kinda useless being a boyfriend like that. She's giving me chances but I still blew her up like that. Is damn a shame.
I love you my girlfriend. Thank you for all the forgiveness. But sorry for all the hurt that I put on you.
Where reflections were been discovered and resolved when we quarrel.
She's my strong girlfriend. Her name is Yi Jie. <3
I Love you silly. I know you hate me. Just hate me, it is better and easier hating me than love me.
