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Hello welcome to my site. Some disclaimers first: Everything written down here are just my pea's worth of opinion. You are not to take anything I mentioned against me. And I do not need your validation to live, for the record. :)
Ever since when we started to be together on the 20th December 2010.
I ever remember I told her to be my girlfriend. And she rejected me once. Then I asked her again because I knew something isn't right in her heart.
When she agreed on me, I promised her to give the best for her. But fail for today and some of the day.
When ever she had tears rolling down her cheeks, one thing I had in mind what did I promised her? Why is this happening?
It just feel so bad. Or even worse than bad in describe. What is the problem that happen was, it's me. I'm the one with the stuck up attitude.
What's wrong...
Sometimes it's so bad, leaving is just the only solution I or she could think of.
But then most of the time she got blower away she just said it.
After that she gave me chances and chances again. I'm not happy because she gave me lots of chances. But because she held on to me because she loved me, she believes me, she misses me.
I just feel kinda useless being a boyfriend like that. She's giving me chances but I still blew her up like that. Is damn a shame.
I love you my girlfriend. Thank you for all the forgiveness. But sorry for all the hurt that I put on you.
Where reflections were been discovered and resolved when we quarrel.
She's my strong girlfriend. Her name is Yi Jie. <3
I Love you silly. I know you hate me. Just hate me, it is better and easier hating me than love me.
Why every time I don't talk things straight but having bumps on the road?
Is damn sickening to have myself make someone irritated and piss off.
Yes mean yes stop denying.
I hate myself.
Reflections...
23th March
Written on: Wednesday, March 23, 2011 Time: 9:49 AM
Today is my mummy's birthday. For so long since I was primary school I give mum a kiss on her cheek again. :')
I love you mum thanks for everything and bring me up! :)
You're the best! :)
Its nice to see mummy is happy. :)
Happy birthday mum! <3
Oh well~ What an coincident! Two woman that I love, birthday forced on March! March babies. Aww~ ^^
And dear, do you remember this song when you're young? :)
You will be my sunshine always. <3
Oh my, this 2 woman. :D
20th March
Written on: Tuesday, March 22, 2011 Time: 1:21 PM
20 is the day where you turn 19. Where we are together. Where our aniversary is. :)
Things is shake, rough, and jelly. There will be more to come, but we are strong. Solve solve solve, there are things we can solve. Is just the thoughts we have to think about. :)
I hope the underwater world trip was fun. :) Everything that you mention before, there will be and it will happen. I don't know when but it will on a random day. :) It's nice to see you happy and enjoyed. :)
May this love be different.~
I have my nose leaking from morning.
So badly till my tears just fall out.
For first time ever in my life. The biggest mistake.
Written on: Monday, March 14, 2011 Time: 11:12 AM
It's really lousy of me being a shame of somethings and won't want to sound things out.
I'm glade that she as my girlfriend told me yesterday.
Yes everyone makes mistake unknowingly, even you.
But if I can't seem to realize what is happening when things just happen more than twice and no one tells me.
I'll be never be right but being wrong and getting wrong and worse wrong.
If we had talk out our dislikes on the spot, there will not be something bad that happen today.
It's the fail in communication we had... Or perhaps it's mine.
It's finally good that I do realize the problem that I'm making.
The people I hurt around.
And the hurt that I've gave you.
I don't wanna blame who, it's me I'M the one not making the effort of just sound things out.
Thinking it will be better for just holding back and not saying, NO! it's not always Jun Kai.
I'm afraid the secure and rely that I can't give you that make me worry all the things about you and around you.
I know you're independent.
But just want the secure and rely I can give you.
Just think Jun Kai, Stop worrying!
Yes I do admit, it's tempting to know what you guys were talking about when I'm not around.
Yes you do want to give her secure Jun Kai.
But look at you now, you're still a kid.
You know you love her, but what with the over effort and traditional thoughts that pull you back from yourself?
I really can't understand that part, what is wrong with you?
Is it I'm not going out often?
Is it I missed out the part with my friends?
Stop wearing a mask Jun Kai.
Maybe I'm not speaking out the thoughts FOR myself.
Thanks for the lesson you gave me my dear.
Treat me better only if I treat the way I am to you.
Talk to me like the rest...
Tell me in details.
Tell me what you think.
Tell me what you dislike.
And lastly I Promise to tell you and everyone what my thoughts is. :')
Thank You Dear. ♥
These things will never be revealing to you and the rest again.
*Take my words, I Promise.*
Theres a change in me where I didn't realize, take the initiative to realize your own Jun Kai.
It's not every time there is someone there to tell you. Wake yourself up in your own world.
Cherish.
Written on: Thursday, March 3, 2011 Time: 9:26 PM
It's never enough demand in the human civilization.
We can never be the best of everything in life, but we've tried our very best.
Even when trying, it's never always the way it will be good either.
Even when it's good/perfect, it will be boring after a long term where things is just made to be good where theres no hates and love.
For example the latest gadget the iPhone.
If it's made to be good, then where there be "Activeness"?
The physiological brain is not working for the better, but lazy in that manner.
15% of humans work for the better/impossible
80% of humans waits/obey things.
5% of them wait for no improvements.
Haha just random.
Just think that we human are so amazing and weird.
Anyway what about cherish? :)
Ya this girl once was a stranger to me.
Someone I didn't able to talk to when I first met her.
We are so quiet, so far apart.
When one day she's right here close in my arms.
What do I think about her?
Yeah she's still hard to chase I think. :P
She's not like the normal girls so easily to be pleased.
But oh well, challenging is not an option. :)
This time round knowing this girl is different.
Time take what it takes to gain the character of this girl.
Having her and knowing that this time round it will be very different.
You're someone who I really put a ll my trust in. :)
Like seriously the first time?
Come on. I'm serious!
She trust me, and I trust her.
There are many things she needed me.
But at times I can't make it, and I wish I could.
It's not I didn't want to give you my secure to you, but I can't.
They are limited just that or long trip there.
Most of the time I break the rules just for you.
But I know the consequences that will happen to me before I do.
She's shy.
She's sweet.
She's pretty.
She's happy.
She's silly.
She's adorable.
She's Lovely.
It's all about you. :)
The person I cherish is you Miss Tan.
The Music Box That Contain Your ♥
Written on: Sunday, February 27, 2011 Time: 10:25 PM
How long could you find someone that loves you back when you found yourself loving her too?
We aren't perfect, but I got a vision we do if we talk things out.
As the music play, I had in mind of what we've been through even before we're both together. We quarrel, we cry, we play, we laugh, we keep quiet, we spare a thought, we understand, we learn & we are shy.
You're more than a gift, more than a treasure that is worth around the world!
You're not ugly.
Never at all, you're always the sweet woman that i'm looking for.
You always makes me smile, makes me wonder, makes me laugh, makes me happy, makes me drop my tears, makes my heart pumping for you, makes me wanna hug you tightly.
You do care, concern, thought, truthful, faithful, reasonable, understand.
And most of all you love me for what I am.
There will not be another love story but this, even though we don't know how long it will be.
But I have a vision we could walk our way to there. ♥
She's my sweet heart.
Written on: Thursday, July 14, 2011 Time: 1:19 AM
Today I blog someone how much I love her.
Ever since when we started to be together on the 20th December 2010.
I ever remember I told her to be my girlfriend. And she rejected me once. Then I asked her again because I knew something isn't right in her heart.
When she agreed on me, I promised her to give the best for her. But fail for today and some of the day.
When ever she had tears rolling down her cheeks, one thing I had in mind what did I promised her? Why is this happening?
It just feel so bad. Or even worse than bad in describe. What is the problem that happen was, it's me. I'm the one with the stuck up attitude.
What's wrong...
Sometimes it's so bad, leaving is just the only solution I or she could think of.
But then most of the time she got blower away she just said it.
After that she gave me chances and chances again. I'm not happy because she gave me lots of chances. But because she held on to me because she loved me, she believes me, she misses me.
I just feel kinda useless being a boyfriend like that. She's giving me chances but I still blew her up like that. Is damn a shame.
I love you my girlfriend. Thank you for all the forgiveness. But sorry for all the hurt that I put on you.
Where reflections were been discovered and resolved when we quarrel.
She's my strong girlfriend. Her name is Yi Jie. <3
I Love you silly. I know you hate me. Just hate me, it is better and easier hating me than love me.
Why every time I don't talk things straight but having bumps on the road?
Is damn sickening to have myself make someone irritated and piss off.
Yes mean yes stop denying.
I hate myself.
Reflections...
23th March
Written on: Wednesday, March 23, 2011 Time: 9:49 AM
Today is my mummy's birthday. For so long since I was primary school I give mum a kiss on her cheek again. :')
I love you mum thanks for everything and bring me up! :)
You're the best! :)
Its nice to see mummy is happy. :)
Happy birthday mum! <3
Oh well~ What an coincident! Two woman that I love, birthday forced on March! March babies. Aww~ ^^
And dear, do you remember this song when you're young? :)
You will be my sunshine always. <3
Oh my, this 2 woman. :D
20th March
Written on: Tuesday, March 22, 2011 Time: 1:21 PM
20 is the day where you turn 19. Where we are together. Where our aniversary is. :)
Things is shake, rough, and jelly. There will be more to come, but we are strong. Solve solve solve, there are things we can solve. Is just the thoughts we have to think about. :)
I hope the underwater world trip was fun. :) Everything that you mention before, there will be and it will happen. I don't know when but it will on a random day. :) It's nice to see you happy and enjoyed. :)
May this love be different.~
I have my nose leaking from morning.
So badly till my tears just fall out.
For first time ever in my life. The biggest mistake.
Written on: Monday, March 14, 2011 Time: 11:12 AM
It's really lousy of me being a shame of somethings and won't want to sound things out.
I'm glade that she as my girlfriend told me yesterday.
Yes everyone makes mistake unknowingly, even you.
But if I can't seem to realize what is happening when things just happen more than twice and no one tells me.
I'll be never be right but being wrong and getting wrong and worse wrong.
If we had talk out our dislikes on the spot, there will not be something bad that happen today.
It's the fail in communication we had... Or perhaps it's mine.
It's finally good that I do realize the problem that I'm making.
The people I hurt around.
And the hurt that I've gave you.
I don't wanna blame who, it's me I'M the one not making the effort of just sound things out.
Thinking it will be better for just holding back and not saying, NO! it's not always Jun Kai.
I'm afraid the secure and rely that I can't give you that make me worry all the things about you and around you.
I know you're independent.
But just want the secure and rely I can give you.
Just think Jun Kai, Stop worrying!
Yes I do admit, it's tempting to know what you guys were talking about when I'm not around.
Yes you do want to give her secure Jun Kai.
But look at you now, you're still a kid.
You know you love her, but what with the over effort and traditional thoughts that pull you back from yourself?
I really can't understand that part, what is wrong with you?
Is it I'm not going out often?
Is it I missed out the part with my friends?
Stop wearing a mask Jun Kai.
Maybe I'm not speaking out the thoughts FOR myself.
Thanks for the lesson you gave me my dear.
Treat me better only if I treat the way I am to you.
Talk to me like the rest...
Tell me in details.
Tell me what you think.
Tell me what you dislike.
And lastly I Promise to tell you and everyone what my thoughts is. :')
Thank You Dear. ♥
These things will never be revealing to you and the rest again.
*Take my words, I Promise.*
Theres a change in me where I didn't realize, take the initiative to realize your own Jun Kai.
It's not every time there is someone there to tell you. Wake yourself up in your own world.
Cherish.
Written on: Thursday, March 3, 2011 Time: 9:26 PM
It's never enough demand in the human civilization.
We can never be the best of everything in life, but we've tried our very best.
Even when trying, it's never always the way it will be good either.
Even when it's good/perfect, it will be boring after a long term where things is just made to be good where theres no hates and love.
For example the latest gadget the iPhone.
If it's made to be good, then where there be "Activeness"?
The physiological brain is not working for the better, but lazy in that manner.
15% of humans work for the better/impossible
80% of humans waits/obey things.
5% of them wait for no improvements.
Haha just random.
Just think that we human are so amazing and weird.
Anyway what about cherish? :)
Ya this girl once was a stranger to me.
Someone I didn't able to talk to when I first met her.
We are so quiet, so far apart.
When one day she's right here close in my arms.
What do I think about her?
Yeah she's still hard to chase I think. :P
She's not like the normal girls so easily to be pleased.
But oh well, challenging is not an option. :)
This time round knowing this girl is different.
Time take what it takes to gain the character of this girl.
Having her and knowing that this time round it will be very different.
You're someone who I really put a ll my trust in. :)
Like seriously the first time?
Come on. I'm serious!
She trust me, and I trust her.
There are many things she needed me.
But at times I can't make it, and I wish I could.
It's not I didn't want to give you my secure to you, but I can't.
They are limited just that or long trip there.
Most of the time I break the rules just for you.
But I know the consequences that will happen to me before I do.
She's shy.
She's sweet.
She's pretty.
She's happy.
She's silly.
She's adorable.
She's Lovely.
It's all about you. :)
The person I cherish is you Miss Tan.
The Music Box That Contain Your ♥
Written on: Sunday, February 27, 2011 Time: 10:25 PM
How long could you find someone that loves you back when you found yourself loving her too?
We aren't perfect, but I got a vision we do if we talk things out.
As the music play, I had in mind of what we've been through even before we're both together. We quarrel, we cry, we play, we laugh, we keep quiet, we spare a thought, we understand, we learn & we are shy.
You're more than a gift, more than a treasure that is worth around the world!
You're not ugly.
Never at all, you're always the sweet woman that i'm looking for.
You always makes me smile, makes me wonder, makes me laugh, makes me happy, makes me drop my tears, makes my heart pumping for you, makes me wanna hug you tightly.
You do care, concern, thought, truthful, faithful, reasonable, understand.
And most of all you love me for what I am.
There will not be another love story but this, even though we don't know how long it will be.
But I have a vision we could walk our way to there. ♥
